man im at etopia… and im like bored and stuff cause all i want to do now is talk to chelsea…. but she is not online and it makes me sad…. and i really need to talk to her and stuff….. i really love her… but i dont know if she loves me so it makes me sad inside….. but deep down inside i truthfully honestly love her…. its not lust i love her i swear with my life that i love her and i will never use her….
i love chelsea
i dont know what to do now. im so confused and alone. i need some1′s
help. i am in love with her. but i dont know my friends dont want me to
like her. and some of my friends dont even believe me that i got a gf.
cause they think its impossible for me. wut the hell. wut kind of
friends are they if they think that? well man. im just lost now. very
lost. but its all good cause i still got my best friends behind
me. like sheren. well im doingbetter in school kind of hopefully.
and my parents kind of respect me more. its either that or they dont
really care for me cause they are starting to leave me alone now and
stuff. well i gotta get ready for school so im outtiez for now lata
today ill update this entry. bye bye
i dont know what to do now…. im so confused and alone. my friend
ikaika is having some props. and im having some probs. i lost my good
friend april. and people want me to break up with my gf chelsea but i
dont know what to do. im sad. well in school i raised my grade alittle
from a F to a C. well please can someone help me? im so confused. i
love chelsea but some people dont like her. heres a pic i drew last
night.
its called a bleeding heart of a wounded victom.
when i need you and you dont come i dont blame you. i blame myself its because of me that you don’t come. i cant live now, cold and all alone. there is nothing to do now but to cry in the dark alone. to hide all of my tears and to hide all of my problems, to hide the million tears that are about to fall. running is all i can do now. running away from you to hide myself from letting you see me fall. i dont want to let u see me crumble and fall. im gonna run so far that you wont see me cry. the stars start to chase me. as i fall down on my back, i rise up knowing the pain of you will come back. running away is the only way of getting you out of my mind. sometimes i wanna cry, sometimes i wanna yell. sometimes i wanna fall down and cry. sometimes i wanna stand up and yell. sometimes i wanna cry and yell i love you.
i was so alone and now finally i found someone to keep my soul alive. finally i fell in love again. i thought there would be no chance for a long time but finally i found love.
i love you chelsea
