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 i think im gonna fail my freshman year…. damnit!
i shouldnt have played around this year and i shuoldve did better for
real in staed of play around… DAMNIT im dead….

right wen you thought things were all done. theres always something
still lingering onto your soul bringing you down slowly. right wen you
thought you were safe you finally notice you were wrrong. Very wrong.
why do other people try to bring other people down from their hopes and
dreams? they do it cause they are jealous. they are jealous that he or
she has a dream or a goal in life and they wanna do anything in they
natural will to stop them from accomplishing their dream. 

everytime i look into the mirror. and there it is the reflection of me.
is it really worth it? is it really worth it to end my life? slowly i
close my eyes and all i hear are the echoes of the moans of the dying.
reminising in my ears. echoing deep in my ear. the moans of the dying
now getting louder. cries from there families. cries from their
husbands. their wives. their kids. i start to back away from my
reflection. in the mirror my relection changes. i fall down to the
ground as i see the mirror. the man in the mirror smiled at me and took
a knife in the hand and stabbed himself. the mirror bled now. the cries
of  people came back into my head. i scream loudly. and i wake
from my nightmare. as wut i think is sweat drops from my face to the
floor i breathe hard. i look down at the floor and i see blood. just
kill me now i think in my head as i fall back down into a endless pits
of fallen dreams and broken fantasies. gone now falling forever.

wowzorz……… hba fun fair… so much ppl……
lmao……
so much people said i got so tall… i mean thankx and all but kinna…. >.< embarressing….
wah! well.. had fun seeing all the old faces and stuff…..
corey and jon slept over and we went to tempei at SAM sung plaza…
lmao… wen we were talking out my two fingers were stuck in the chair
and i was yelling AHHHHH and jon and corey were laughing…. *sigh*
yes… i did get owned by a little chair….. but then we went to dole
to see the punisher and OOOOO jon RUSSIAN GUY IS ALL BIG!!!!
rofl well ttyl peace outz

GOALS

1. to hit 6 feet

2. work out and get in shape

3. stay in school

4. get my mazda rx8 after used car

5. get cut

i just dont know wut to do with my life any more….

i just wanna tear apart my paper heart….

life sucks… life sucks a big fat…. BLAH…. grrrr…. this sucks… my parents irritate me so much.. they care for me so much it pisses me off…. they want me to stay in my skool… hma…. its kinna gay….. cause got thsi stupid comunitty service thing i gotta do to pass the school year… GAY!!!! well…. i got into a fight with my mom and i told my dad on the phone to get away from me and dont talk to me and if he does im gonna ignore him…. tonight im gonna get a lecture…. and today i told my mom get out of my room now or ill get out.. and shes like r u saying ur gonna run away? and im like yea i will again…. and shes like where r u gonna go? and im like somewhere and shes like wut u gonna sleep over that girls hosue again? and im like no… and then shes like laughing and says u trynna scare me? and im like confused…. and shes like u step one foot out of this house u better watch out. i promise u watch out. you’ll never see me this mad ever again. just watch wut happens if u step out of this house. just watch.

WOW ISNT PARENTS SUPPOSED TO SHOW US WUT TO DO. AND HERS MY MOM THREATENING ME TO BEAT THE SHIT OUT OF ME!…. wow good job mom! your the best mom ever! you deserve a knife in your fkn face! o wellz….. life sucks…

its been like 1 month since i cut myself… i gess im gonna go back to cutting…. so much depression….

1. not too many tru friends

2. hate the parents

3. school sucks

4. girlfriend isnt here for me

why i wanna stay living.

1. my little brothers and sis that i take care of

2. watching my gf laugh wen ever i get to talk to her

3. watching my gf smile wen im with her

4. talking to my sister in korea and chicago

5. god

6. hearing my gf say i love you…….

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                        if you guys didnt notice……..

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everytime i think about you my heart stops beating
everytime you dont talk to me my heart slowly corrodes
everytime you dont think of me i slowly die
when you stopped talking to me
when you stopped thinking of me
when you stopped dreaming of me
my heart has been a victom
a victom of your plan. your plan to injure innocent hearts
im a bleeding heart of a wounded victom
it will never stop bleeding
cause theres something missing in my heart
and its you

bleeding heart of a wounded victom…..

i miss you chelsea…. i miss you so much…. well… i dont know if u still wanna be together since the fact its been a month since u last talked to me… and.. well…. i dont know anymore… i just wanna say i love you…