took sum pix on ma camera just now and gonna put dem in ma entry now so
enjoy…. well da pix are stupid so dont mind me i was bored… and
very tiredx2

calvin and hobbes book! every house needs one! cause calnvin and hobbes rule!

and of course i got to have my tommy hilfiger colougne! w00t

and of course the wooden heart i made in woodshop! now selling for $7
tell me if u want one and pay me and ill make on within 1 week

my beautiful ibanez electric guitar!

and last but not least
my lovely comfy bed that i sleep in. girlish? is that wut u think? WELL
I DONT CARE! TO ME AND MY OTHER FRIENDS WE THINK ITS PIMP SO IDC WUT
YOU THINK! GRRRRR……..

my lovely comfy bed that i sleep in. girlish? is that wut u think? WELL
I DONT CARE! TO ME AND MY OTHER FRIENDS WE THINK ITS PIMP SO IDC WUT
YOU THINK! GRRRRR……..

heh?

hello people i went to the ebach in waikiki today and i found a nice
rock…. and im gonna give it to some1… well here are some pics i
drew in the past i want to show people…

hope you guys liked my pics!
well ttyl
i <3 chelsea

all i can think about right now is that i love you chelsea……. i
will always love you as long as i live….. and i never want to stop
loving you……

i love you chelsea

hello! me and chelsea hooked back up! well umm…. her mom was talking to me on aim and the last thing she said was she was gonna talk to chelsea when she comes back from the bathroom… so i hope nothing bad happened… well i just want to say i love you chelsea

another sad day today…. i had to act nice to my friends so that they
wouldnt notice that anything was wrong with me but deep down inside i
actually hate them all… they irritate me the only ones that dont piss
me off are the juniors in my school…. well yea….
2nd day of depression March 11,2004
Time:6 :31 pm…..
Friends: Angela, Trent, Tyler N., Ikaika, Justin, Mike, Alex, Nick, Mike, Krystal, Teresa, Joey i think thats all?
Family: Dad (currently has astma) Mom ( currently has one lung and she
still smokes) Ayoung ( in army and is preagnant ) Nikky (in army and is
currently ayoung’s husband) Sadie ( currently in chicago having fun)
Serena (living in hawaii kai somewhere)
Me: a loser, freak, suicide, raver, comp player, artist, poet, a fucker
( currently lives in hawaii and has a heart mur mur and has a hole in
his heart from his childhood )
well today was a fuqed day… not too much fun.. i went to etopia after
school and met with some friends like john, james, jun, kai, and
kaulana… basically all…. BLAH… i got no friends at all…. BLAH
BLAH BLAH o wellz………… well ima slit wrist again tonight im
gonna add more cuts to my arm slowly…….. how fun! yay! put your
hands up for me! whoo hoo! well ummm nothing much more to say o
wells….

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a boquet for the souls i stupidly fell in lust with…..
lauren, tayler, michelle, shelby, ruby, alice

another sad day in my life… from now on ill number all of the sad days i got starting from now on! well today is day one….
Wednesday March 10,2004
i took sleeping pills in school today and i feel asleep for a long time. well as usual school is shitty for me and stuff…. i just wrote poems and stuff and just rubbing the cuts i got on my wrist/arm… i stared at the clouds today pondering about my pathetic excuse for a life… and hey my sister a-young from ______ called me and we talked i might move to _____ with her! yay! now i can run away from hawaii and leave all the fuckers in hawaii behind me and i can forget them! whoo hoo! all the fuckers in hawaii where i get all my stress from… mainly the girls with the acception of some guys as the following: Jimmy, Rico, Chad and some other people from my school but hey i shouldnt let it bother me r
ight? cause a lot of other people hate me too…. but hey thats life! whoo hoo! well i think im gonna cut again tonight idk with what though… cause a knife doesnt work too well… and razors arent deep enough…. so i asked my best friend joey to get me an x-acto knife! w00t….. well umm…. i dont know what to say now… oo yea thanks genie for the talk last night about my life and how to get in shape and thanks angela for helping me about chelsea… lol its not like chelsea is onna even listen to u…. thanks krystal too….. lol well umm… i dont know what to say now…. hmm… well ill just give u guys one of the poems i wrote today…… enjoy please…

Sleeping In A Endless Pain
Slowly Falling
Every Vision Flashing Before My Eyes
Dreams and Fantasies Come To Life
The Door To The Light Closes
As Blind As A Bat In The Daylight
I stumble Trying to Find You
Walking In The Indefinate Vortex Of Pain
Looking For You
Thinking Of You
Dreaming Of You
The Pain That I Have From Thinking About You
Walking In My Heart With a Blindfold
Looking For You
I Know Your In Here
But I Can’t Find You
Maybe After All You Were Never Here After All
Maybe You Were Never Here
Maybe You Weren’t Ever In My Heart After All

i dont know what to do with my life anymore…. im so alone… and
depressed…… all i can do is pray that chelsea will accept me
again….. nothing to do with my life now…. last night slit my arm 3
times and today when i went to the doctor he gave me thsi big lecture
about it so im kinna….. angry…. well im sick so this fucking
sucks…..just wanna say i love chelsea…..

fawk….. today sucked a hole…. im just home… sick… bored…..
and raving in my room while listening to underground trance mixes and
playing ddr….. blah… boring aint it?

she paints her nails and she dont know. hes got her best friend on the
phone. she’ll wash her hair his dirty clothes. thats all he gives to
her. hes got posters on the wall of al the girls he wished she was. and
he means everything to her. her boyfriend. he dont kndont know anything
about her.hes too stoned nintendo. i wish that i could make her see .
shes just the flavor of the week.. its friday night shes all alone hes
a million miles away shes dresssed to kill. butt eh tvs on and hes
connected tot he sound. and hes got pictures on the wall of all the
girls he loved before. shes just  the flavor of the week…..