March 10, 2004
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another sad day in my life... from now on ill number all of the sad days i got starting from now on! well today is day one....
Wednesday March 10,2004
i took sleeping pills in school today and i feel asleep for a long time. well as usual school is shitty for me and stuff.... i just wrote poems and stuff and just rubbing the cuts i got on my wrist/arm... i stared at the clouds today pondering about my pathetic excuse for a life... and hey my sister a-young from ______ called me and we talked i might move to _____ with her! yay! now i can run away from hawaii and leave all the fuckers in hawaii behind me and i can forget them! whoo hoo! all the fuckers in hawaii where i get all my stress from... mainly the girls with the acception of some guys as the following: Jimmy, Rico, Chad and some other people from my school but hey i shouldnt let it bother me r
ight? cause a lot of other people hate me too.... but hey thats life! whoo hoo! well i think im gonna cut again tonight idk with what though... cause a knife doesnt work too well... and razors arent deep enough.... so i asked my best friend joey to get me an x-acto knife!
w00t..... well umm.... i dont know what to say now... oo yea thanks genie for the talk last night about my life and how to get in shape and thanks angela for helping me about chelsea... lol its not like chelsea is onna even listen to u.... thanks krystal too..... lol well umm... i dont know what to say now.... hmm... well ill just give u guys one of the poems i wrote today...... enjoy please...
Sleeping In A Endless Pain
Slowly Falling
Every Vision Flashing Before My Eyes
Dreams and Fantasies Come To Life
The Door To The Light Closes
As Blind As A Bat In The Daylight
I stumble Trying to Find You
Walking In The Indefinate Vortex Of Pain
Looking For You
Thinking Of You
Dreaming Of You
The Pain That I Have From Thinking About You
Walking In My Heart With a Blindfold
Looking For You
I Know Your In Here
But I Can't Find You
Maybe After All You Were Never Here After All
Maybe You Were Never Here
Maybe You Weren't Ever In My Heart After All
Comments (8)
o.O..sad poem dude..so touching..neway DONT FRICKIN CUTT URSELF KAY! ITS FRICKIN BAD...UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH didnt u listen to one word i sed last nite..-_- *sigh* welp when u move to korea ima miss u .. ttyl
luvs..kimmie
p.s..[ u kno a lot of ppl luv u.. never forget ]
heyy stanLey ;]
wow.. yu have the most awesomest skills in drawinq! x]
hi koo site i kno dis is who u r now wait no dis was who u were all along sorrie i eva tried to change u i jus cared alot about u and i still lylab k bai
yo g how can u leave ur bf do u not love me any more... i feel so hurt.. but yea if u move.. gonna miss u man.. u noe.. the best cs player we got.. so yea if u forget about us fuckers.. bring me with you
so we can party in KOREA!!
hiyee stanford.. welpz juss leaving a comment.. take care.. biyee
-allyson-
hey. always search for the positive sides in things..dont focus too much on the bad sides. u will just end up getting even more hurt. feel better kiddo. nice drawing.
hello mr. anderson
lol i've bin wantin tew do that forever ^^ korea?? dats soooo far away!!! doshite? whyyyyy?! other than the fact that u'll b in the place where the kewl soapz r made
welpz i'll miss yooh!
that's a real pretty poem...
come on, don't cut urself. i used to cut and some times i still do...but please...don't...i still love u ^.^
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