if you think you know me how can you know me when i dont even know
myself? if you think you can help me how can you help me if i cant be
helped? if you think you can love me.. how can u love me if its
over….. how can i live? how can i dream? how can i touch? how can i
taste? how can i think? how can i see? how can i love?

when i need you and you dont come i dont blame you.  i blame
myself its because of me that you don’t come.  i cant live now,
cold and all alone.  there is nothing to do now but to cry in the
dark alone.  to hide all of my tears and to hide all of my
problems, to hide the million tears that are about to fall. 
running is all i can do now.  running away from you to hide myself
from letting you see me fall.  i dont want to let u see me crumble
and fall.  im gonna run so far that you wont see me cry.  the
stars start to chase me.  as i fall down on my back, i rise up
knowing the pain of you will come back.  running away is the only
way of getting you out of my mind.  sometimes i wanna cry, 
sometimes i wanna yell.  sometimes i wanna fall down and
cry.  sometimes i wanna stand up and yell.  sometimes i wanna
cry and yell i love you.

im not wut i used to be………..

running away…… i did it today for about 1 hour… my sister april
told me it was dumb and stuff…. my other friend talked to me… and i
realized stuff… i stayed out for another 30 mins to chill…. stare
at the stars…… i told the stars that i give up on love… and that
love wasnt for me…. and  i think im right… it just aint for
me….. i told the bright red star about me and robyn and it understood
and i told it i will move on…. i told the white star right below the
moon about every1 i hated… and it forgave me… i told the moon
every1 i ever liked and it listened to me…. it told me that its ok if
they didnt like me in return…. i told god that im sorry for ever
losing trust in him….. and he told me he loves me……. and after
the phone call i had with genie i feel weird now…. she offered me to
stay at her place….. idk y but i feel special…….. well im
outz…… im tired from cryimg tonight

life maybe seen useless….. love may seem dumb….. we are all like
raindrops. small. delicate. cold. blue. and intricate. god is the one
catching all of the raindrops. taking us in his arms to be in peace and
harmony. when we find love. we are not raindrops anymore. we become a
small little water puddle. there connected with the loved one in gods
hands….