i love you….. when u hated me and i hated you deep down inside i
actually loved you…. i could never hate the one i love… when i lost
you i thought my heart would never find peace ever again…. until now
…. i think i have fallen in love with you again…. after all the
days ive been missing you i only noticed im in love with you couple
days ago.. i couldnt stop thinking about you… whenever i stared at
the stars… when i was sleeping… when i was running….. when it was
raining and i was standing there waiting i only thought about you…. i
just wish i was so much of a dick that you hated me back then…. i
hope/wish that you will take me back because i honestly truly love
you…… i wanna show my love you….. i would go to ala moana and
scream i love you…. i would go in the middle of the street and yell i
love you….. i give everything i have just to have another chance with
you…….

i love you

DONE WITH THIS XANGA!!!! NEW ONE IS

www.xanga.com/iNiTiaLxdisFunction

ummm today is saturday….. well i went to pcg tournament and umm… i
got owned…. lol i was with italent ( or [i].Hoshi^^taLent) well we
vsed climaX 1st or ability’s lan team and we got owned 13-1….. then
we played absolute reality and omg we got owned…. i was doing so
shitty i swear to god it was inferno score was 13-4…. omg sooo
shitty… well justin went with me to pcg and it was from 11 am – 5 pm
me justin billy mark roy and maka was hungry so we went to curry house
and ate…. yum… lol well i went to toys and joys and a bought a 5 cd
pack of initial d music eurobeat…. well… im gonna scrim all night
today… well yea….. umm…. i talked to genie on the phone for like
1 minute today… lol well umm….. TODAYS CLOUDS WERE SOOO BEAUTIFUL
OMG…… I WISH TODAYS KIND OF CLOUDS WOULD HAPPEN WHEN I WAS DATING
MY EX-GF OMG… SO NICE… I WOULD DIE TO HAVE THIS KIND OF DAY WITH
HER…….  sigh… but the fact is that i dont think she wants to
be my friend n e more or so cause we got into a fight and stuff so
yea… kinna sad but its ok….  i can live……. but idk if i
can live without her im serious…….. maybe the fact she was kinna my
1st gf and i really love her and all thats y maybe…. well yea kinna
sad and depressing… i cried couple days ago for her….
well whining about it aint gonna do anything about it… so yea…. i
just wanted to express my feelings… about wut i think about of
robyn……. sigh….. maybe we were supposed to break up for a
reason… well we broke up like last year august…… but shit im
still sad about it… i may not show it but crap…… i really am…
oo yea if u r one of robyns friends dont tell her about my xanga…. i
dont want her to read this stuff… well im outties so bye……….

will you remember me?

cs tourny on sat-sunday wish me luck….
getting pearcings on my ear soon
tatoo on my back soon
bmw series 3 in 1 year…
good grades soon… (hoping)

-currently reading  “On Writing” Stephen King
-currently listening to “Out of Control” Hoobastank

drinking a coke….

hmmm today da ppl that pissed me off are jay wolf and only jay wolf…. shiet…

WHOO HOOO….

i cut myself today!!!!!
MMMM… blood tasty….

               
              
-stanford a.k.a jeung jin

ahahha today i went and picked up corey we ate at mc donalds and then went to shirokiya to get food!! and lol
i had a straw in my mouth and im biting it then all of a sudden it
shoots out and smacks this guy on the arm and then me and corey are
kinna cracking up and den im all like OOPZ so den i pick up the straw
and slowly start walking away laughing hard…. lol that was sooo funny
and another funny thing is that im with corey gonna pay and then in the
socmetic section i see a box with a blonde girl on the box and shes
HALF NAKED i mean u could like ser her boobs and the skin everything
but the only thing that was missing were her NIPPLES!! LMAO
lol well thats wut happened today!
leave comments plz!!! AND PROPS

when i need you and you dont come i dont blame you.  i blame
myself its because of me that you don’t come.  i cant live now,
cold and all alone.  there is nothing to do now but to cry in the
dark alone.  to hide all of my tears and to hide all of my
problems, to hide the million tears that are about to fall. 
running is all i can do now.  running away from you to hide myself
from letting you see me fall.  i dont want to let u see me crumble
and fall.  im gonna run so far that you wont see me cry.  the
stars start to chase me.  as i fall down on my back, i rise up
knowing the pain of you will come back.  running away is the only
way of getting you out of my mind.  sometimes i wanna cry, 
sometimes i wanna yell.  sometimes i wanna fall down and
cry.  sometimes i wanna stand up and yell.  sometimes i wanna
cry and yell i love you.

-written by me

poem i wrote on christmas eve……..

When im waiting here for my time
Eternity passes me by
The moon and the stars pass me by
The moon and the stars will never die
The coldness of the world will always stay by my side

                   As the moon shines in the dark blue sky
                   As the stars glisten in the sky

The coldness of the air surrounds me
The only shelter is in the house
I start to take steps closer
My heart starts to beat

             I take a glance in the window
                I see a bunch of people
                They look so familiar
                I notice they are my “Family”

I turn my head away
I turn around following my head
I walk away from the house
Never letting them see me again

                                  Living in the cold blue world
                               I wait for my time
                            My Destiny
                         My Eternity
                      My Life
                   My Death
                My Love
             My Shelter
           My Friends
         My God
       My Family
     My Happiness
   My Rose in the dark to wither away
The Petals of the roses to find its way back home
        

i wont leave until i get wut i want….

wuts a better turn on for a girl?

1. a built guy who raves?
2. a built guy who is in  a band?
3. a built guy who is a computer game pro?
4. a built guy who can rave is in a band and is a game pro?
5. a built guy whos funny and is in a band?
6. a built guy who is funny nice cute is in a band who raves and is a game pro?

which one is more better?